39 days

Need I say more? Crap.... Crap and Crap... I have to get my Crap together and get everything done. Not an easy thing to do working full time and haivng two kids and moving on two weeks. Oh holy Crap....

Trimming our tree

On Sunday we went to go get our Christmas tree. I bundled the kids up, because here in California it was like 45 F and that is freezing for us. So we got to the tree lot and the kids ran around trying to find the perfect tree. After about an hour of searching they finally found the one they liked. It was a 10 foot Noble fir. I think it was possibly the best tree I have seen in years. We tied the tree to the top of my dad's car and headed home. The kids were so anxious to get the tree up. We dug around in the garage and found the stand and put the tree up. I told the kids,' o.k. momma is going to make some hot cocoa, go get you P.J.s on and then we will trim the tree.' I headed off into the kitchen and the kids headed down the hall to get dressed. When I went back into the family room I saw that a couple of branches were laying on the ground. I was like wow for such a pretty tree it sure is loosing it's needles fast. Then I saw a slipper peeking out from the base of the tree. It was my eight year old son. I said,'Honey what are you doing underneath the tree sweetie, be careful you will knock it over sweetie.' He looked at me with wide eyes. ' Mom I am trimming the tree.' I started to laugh... my dear son was actually cutting the tree with scissors. This is a moment I will treasure for ever. The pure cuteness of him and the way his little brain thinks. To adorable. I explained to him that trimming the tree meant putting on lights and decorations. He looked at me confused and said,' Well then why don't they call it decorating then, that is so confusing.' I smiled and he cracked up. Then we got out the light and proceeded to decorate our tree. I love Christmas, in fact our whole family loves Christmas. It makes moments liek this momories that will last forever.

I found my Camera

It ahd been lsot all through our Disneyland trip and Thanksgiving and everything. But I found it. It was missed placed and I thought it was lost. But know I have it and I will be getting the pics off today and hopfully posted tonight. I am so happy it turned up. :-)

Christmas time

I love Christmas time. I love the shopping, the family gatherings, and the baking. Christmas in our home is a joyful experience. The kids bring Christmas stuff from school, there is lot of hot chocolate, and there is a sense of peace in the world. This year I am extra blessed because it feels like the magic of Christmas is back. I am not sure if it is because I relax more and don't stress about things, or if by some miracle you hit a certain age and you feel like a kid again. either way I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Thinking I need to invest in a good bottle of wine

I had a phone call today from my aunt. " Can you go pick up your cousins shoes? She lost her car because she didnt do something. I have no time to drive her down there in the next two week."
I was like I can try. Seriously I you want me to what... Like I don't have enough to do. Im the Mean time I call down to DB to check on the hours that they are open till tonight and one of my lovely maids has not picked up her dress yet, despite several reminders to her. I am in like stress out city here. They are all adults... they all drive... some of them ahve kids. I have given them all like 2 months to pick up there stuff. Two months you can't find the time to go pick something up in two months. Wow. Maybe it is me, but if I pay money for something and it comes in I want to go get it. I hope I am not comming off as bridzilla but it is really starting to tick me off.

84 day to go.... is it ever going to come

So I thought I had the perfect gift for my FI for the wedding. I rented the San Jose Sharks mascot to make an appearance at our wedding. I know I Know it sound odd. We are huge hockey fans. He is the one who introduced me to hockey and I fell in love with it about as fast as I fell in love with Shark boy. So I told my mom last night ans she thinks it is tacky. Crap. So now I have Payed the money got the conformation that he is coming and she doesn't want it at the wedding. FABULOUS.... my surprise went down the drain. I emailed to see if we could switch days and have him come to the rehearsal instead. There goes my pic in my dress with Sharkie...
On the up side we got a call today saying that we can move into our Apt Jan. 15 I am so excited. Even though it will be cramped with only tow rooms and two kids, plus all our stuff, It will be ours and we will be together everyday .... well after the wedding at least.

Brown Pants

Brown pants how happy you make my day
I put you on and my cares go away
I love your missing buttons
and the way you've started to frey
the holes in your pockets
and your zipper that doesn't stay

Brown pants you've been under two pregnant bellies of mine
maybe a third if there is time
when there is nothing to wear you never let me down
I love you silky softness
the browness that you convey
even though your hem is uneven
I love you anyway

Brown pants someday
you'll be nothing but a string
I will have woren you out till there's nothing left but your label thing
I will have to cut you up and make you something else instead
maybe a nice pillow for my bed

I will love you even though you've changed
I be glad to still have you with me
Brown pants you are all I need

Stand UP.....

Follow me

Follow me across the road, into the street and safely to the other side

Follow me down the sidewalk, pavement wet and cold

Button your jacket, hold my hand, No Mommy I am old

5 is big now, no more monsters under my bed, don't braid my hair

I want it to look like Hannah instead

I don't like my clothes today, I want pretty dresses, rings and shoes

Why can't I dye my hair I told you I big today

I wear your shoes and walk around with my princess crown

I don't want your help I can do it on my own

Night has come and time to sleep, mommy can you sing me to sleep

I want my lamb and my blankie too

Mommy I guess even though I am getting big, I still need you

Choo Chooo all aboard

Before you comment on this understand that this might become your families favorite dinner pretty soon, if things don't start looking up soon with the economy. We will all be on the Dorrito - Ramen train.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GCYCKmbg2Pg

ONLY 116 DAYS LEFT

I am kinda freaking out today. We only have 116 days left till the wedding. We haven't even ordered the invites. EEK. I have so much to do and not a lot of time to do it in. I really need to stop going away for the weekends and focus on the things I need to do for the wedding.

Time is running out. I sure wish that my bridal party would offer to help me. I have asked only once for help and I won't ask again. i figure if they have the time they will let me know. I think I need a day for everyone to get together and just help with all the little details of thing, like the menu cards, and the table numbers. I guess I should remember that the wedding isn't about the cake flavor or what type of paper I use for the menu cards, or the flowers, it is about the joining of Shark boy and me under our family's and God's blessing. But still as I know this to be true the world today has made weddings a competition in a way, from bride to bride, year to year. We all try to top one another and out do one another. Why...... we are women..... plain and simple. We like to be the best and have everyone jealous of us. Twisted.... yes.... sick...yes.... will it ever end.... I doubt it. I better high tail it to the paper store tonight after work and make some decisions. Wish me luck.... I need it.

My inner bride - hardly

I went on " The Knot" today and I saw that they had a inner bride application where you could customise a bride to look like you. LOL .... well they didn't have any plus size brides to choose from so I made this one. It was fun, took like 5 minutes but I was disappointed to see that still in the world today, especially the wedding world plus size women are not thought of as beautiful. To me it is important to understand that women in particular don't all want to be a size five on there wedding day. Some women like me are happy as a clam to put on a size 20 bridal gown and strut there fluff done the isle . I don't worry about loosing weight for

' My Big Day' I am confident enough to walk down the isle as beautiful me, size 20, sag, rolls and all. So to the 'Knot Gods' , please try thinking of us confident, beautiful, strong, plus size women next time you make a application for brides. We are not all cookie cut brides like you make us out to be. We are individual people, all colors, shapes and sizes.

Wedding website

http://www.mywedding.com/stanleyandelizabethterry/index.html

I hope you enjoy it.

Pumpkin fall

It is almost that time again. Even though this past weekend was 103. I know that fall is just around the corner. Crisp mornings, Pumpkin everything. I can hardly wait. I am excited for you to come fall. Hurry my stock pot is clean and ready for you.

My new fav recipes this week

This week was really busy. I am so glad today is Friday. I had all my bentos planed out for the whole week on a nice little spread sheet, never got to use it. I had to throw them all together so fast in order to get some much needed rest. I improvised and used stuff in the kitchen that I had on hand.

Crescent Roll Pizza

One package on crescent rolls

one cup of low fat Motza cheese

one package of peperoni

I balled up some of the crescent dough and pressed it flat against the cookie sheet

Topped with a little olive oil and garlic powder

Added the motza cheese

Added the peperoni

Back ten minutes at 350 and had pizza

I snuck a little bite while I was packing and it was yummy. The kids can home from school and they thought it was great. So It looks like I found another lunch for the picky hero's.

My personal fav this week was a cut up cucumber with a pinch of garlic salt and fresh cracked pepper on it. I is kinda like a chip kinda like a pickle , but it definitely was a salt craving fix for my new healthy life style. I think half a cucumber ran me 20 calories and it kept me going through till lunch.

Bentos

I have tried numerous times to post some pictures of my recent Bentos but I am having trouble getting them out of my camera on to the comp. So In the mean time I am going to post a recipe that Captain Kurtis and Princess Seresta are in love with.

Apple Smoothie

Two medium sized apples
One 6 oz. vanilla yogurt
One banana
Handful of Blueberries
( if you are careful you can sneak in some whey protein like I do )

Put the apples through the juicer along with the banana and blueberries.
Then pour the juice into the blender and blend with the yogurt and the whey protein.

The kids love it. I usually make it along with breakfast but they like it for dessert as well.

Oh Willie

I am going to see Willie Nelson tonight. I am Super excited. He is my all time favorite artist. I love his voice. I can't wait.

First day of school

Well Today was the is the first day of school. I can hardly believe that my kids are gettting so big. My youngest is in Kindergarten, it seems just like yesterday that I was holding and rocking her to sleep. My son is in second grade and didn't even want a goodbye kiss today. I maganged to blow a quick kiss to him as he was walking into the class, and did get a wink back. I am afraid the days of running up to mommy with arms wide open are over. Now days it is Ben 10 and and Jonny Test and Legos. On the other hand I still get a great joy out of early morning snuggles, and middle of the night bathroom trips from my daughter. When you hold your brand new baby just minutes old and people tell you enjoy the time it goes so fast they aren't kidding. Through the feedings and the diapers you can only long for the day where you get more than two hours sleep at a time. You think to yourself I can't wait till they can walk so I can put them down and get some sleep. But it does go so fast. Too fast. This morning it has me thinking back to all the midnight feeding and crib side songs, longing for my sleepless nights and dark circled eyes. To just have a moment of rocking in the chair and singing lullabies.

Needing calm

So Monday I had a apt at the OBGYN. I needed to get some blood work done and talk to her about my past operations ( in hopes for the big o.k. to have another baby ) well I got some not so good news. She diagnosed me with hypertension. ( oh joy) She said that I need to watch my diet and exercise more. I don't need medication yet but I need to be careful. I also need to learn to relax. She thinks I am too stressed out.

I do not recognize the word relax. I have too much to do to relax. She told me try meditation, yoga, visualization. So I am working on it. I am walking a mile every weekday morning and eating more healthier than before. So far I am down three pounds. Which makes me feel accomplished. I am also finding that sipping on Tazo CALM tea is helping a lot to keep me relaxed. I guess with each new step of life you have to make little adjustments to improve yourself. So this is mine.

My Birthday weekend

So my birthday was this past weekend I had a really great day. I spend the day with my love Shark boy. We ended up having a BBQ at his moms house with our two families. It was a really great time. Shark boy bought me a Sharks Sweater ( why tehy call them this I don't know) for my gift. I love it so much. Sunday night the kids came home from there dad's house and we had a mini party with them back at Grams and Goss's. It was nice to be able to celebrate with the kids too. All in all it was another great birthday. Another year older but another year wiser too. I thought aboutall the things that had happend in the past year and looking back I am truly blessed by God and his path that he has set forth for me. I feel renewed in my connection with him and I am at peace. Something that I never thought I would have again. Life right now is about the journey down the path that is carved out. It is about undying faith and a confident soul and mind. I am so lucky to have so many blessing in my life and I am thankful for each and everyone everyday.

Birthday time

So tonight was Shark boys birthday party. We are going out to eat a the famous " Hoo Hoo Inn" It amazes me still that we have not even been together a year and our wedding is 6 months away. I guess when you fine that someone special you know and everything just settles into place. I think there is a force that draws us closer to each opther everyday. God truly pick the sweetest most graceous man I could ask for as my soul mate. Everyday with Shark boy is like heaven. If this is what I have to look forward to when I leave this world, I am twice over the luckiest women in the world. Right now I treasure all the time we have together and every moment i can spend in his arms. I love him very much and I am blessed to have him in my life. I hope that we get a chance to celebrate 100 more birthday's together.

People

I am a glass half full girl, a silver lined cloud girl, a rainbow after the storm girl. These days it is hard to be that way. Ever notice how many negitve, complasive people there are in the world. It is starting to eat away at my happy- go -lucky state of mind. I am starting to become a middle finger waving, non-listening, hair mussing zilla. So I have decided to become a kill- them- with -kindness -queen. Cross you fingers, I hope it works. I need some peace back in my life from all the rude, complaining people of the world. Take a chill pill people and count the blessings you have in your life, don't take people for granted, and never forget to tell the people you love that you love them.

My sister is the best

She always know the right thing to say when I need a little pick me up. There is a lot unneeded drama that is going on right now that I don't need to be a part of and she let me know that it was o.k. to let go of that part of my life and move on toward the goals and the life that I am working for. Sometimes it is hard to forget the past or even forgive the past. She is helping me to do that and I thank her for that. Right now everything is running so smooth in my life that it seams odd. Usually there are countless hills I have to climb but right now everything is smooth sailing. I guess I am just not used to everything falling into place.

Marc Jacobs

Is the best perfume in the world. I just bought some saturday at Macy's and I love it.

Trying to get everything done

Well I had a meeting last night with the photo lady we are booking for our wedding. It is coming to be a hard thing to keep all the money straight and in line for the wedding. I sometimes sit back and think all this money and work for one day. All this just to say I will love you till death do us part. Hell I can say that to Shark boy in a rain storm with snot running out of my nose and it would mean just the same as saying it in front of 100 people. I guess it is more for the parents and the tradition of it all. I love Shark boy with all my heart it is such a deeper more pure love than I have ever had before. I will admit that I am having fun with all the details and planning I am however not enjoying dishing out thousands of dollars for one day. I think all in all every cent will be put to good use and our day will be perfect and wonderful. On the kids front my kids are darling little balls of crazy this morning. Captain Kurtis still takes 10 minutes to get out of bed and this sends fear through me with no anticipation of his teenage years. Yet they still continue to be the constant and the greatest loves of my life.

My not so private life

Well I decided since most on my life isn't private and everyone I know knows everything that goes on with me. I figured , why not start a blog.