First day of school

Well Today was the is the first day of school. I can hardly believe that my kids are gettting so big. My youngest is in Kindergarten, it seems just like yesterday that I was holding and rocking her to sleep. My son is in second grade and didn't even want a goodbye kiss today. I maganged to blow a quick kiss to him as he was walking into the class, and did get a wink back. I am afraid the days of running up to mommy with arms wide open are over. Now days it is Ben 10 and and Jonny Test and Legos. On the other hand I still get a great joy out of early morning snuggles, and middle of the night bathroom trips from my daughter. When you hold your brand new baby just minutes old and people tell you enjoy the time it goes so fast they aren't kidding. Through the feedings and the diapers you can only long for the day where you get more than two hours sleep at a time. You think to yourself I can't wait till they can walk so I can put them down and get some sleep. But it does go so fast. Too fast. This morning it has me thinking back to all the midnight feeding and crib side songs, longing for my sleepless nights and dark circled eyes. To just have a moment of rocking in the chair and singing lullabies.

Needing calm

So Monday I had a apt at the OBGYN. I needed to get some blood work done and talk to her about my past operations ( in hopes for the big o.k. to have another baby ) well I got some not so good news. She diagnosed me with hypertension. ( oh joy) She said that I need to watch my diet and exercise more. I don't need medication yet but I need to be careful. I also need to learn to relax. She thinks I am too stressed out.

I do not recognize the word relax. I have too much to do to relax. She told me try meditation, yoga, visualization. So I am working on it. I am walking a mile every weekday morning and eating more healthier than before. So far I am down three pounds. Which makes me feel accomplished. I am also finding that sipping on Tazo CALM tea is helping a lot to keep me relaxed. I guess with each new step of life you have to make little adjustments to improve yourself. So this is mine.

My Birthday weekend

So my birthday was this past weekend I had a really great day. I spend the day with my love Shark boy. We ended up having a BBQ at his moms house with our two families. It was a really great time. Shark boy bought me a Sharks Sweater ( why tehy call them this I don't know) for my gift. I love it so much. Sunday night the kids came home from there dad's house and we had a mini party with them back at Grams and Goss's. It was nice to be able to celebrate with the kids too. All in all it was another great birthday. Another year older but another year wiser too. I thought aboutall the things that had happend in the past year and looking back I am truly blessed by God and his path that he has set forth for me. I feel renewed in my connection with him and I am at peace. Something that I never thought I would have again. Life right now is about the journey down the path that is carved out. It is about undying faith and a confident soul and mind. I am so lucky to have so many blessing in my life and I am thankful for each and everyone everyday.

Birthday time

So tonight was Shark boys birthday party. We are going out to eat a the famous " Hoo Hoo Inn" It amazes me still that we have not even been together a year and our wedding is 6 months away. I guess when you fine that someone special you know and everything just settles into place. I think there is a force that draws us closer to each opther everyday. God truly pick the sweetest most graceous man I could ask for as my soul mate. Everyday with Shark boy is like heaven. If this is what I have to look forward to when I leave this world, I am twice over the luckiest women in the world. Right now I treasure all the time we have together and every moment i can spend in his arms. I love him very much and I am blessed to have him in my life. I hope that we get a chance to celebrate 100 more birthday's together.